no offense

Have you ever been so offended that it brought you close to tears? A situation in which you cannot believe someone could be that inconsiderate? At the time you feel as if you are going to burst with anger, that it is going to take everything in you to stop yourself from going ape on that person. You simply just walk away knowing that your back will burn them more than your words. Well, I cannot handle these situations because as soon as I walk away I feel horrible. My guilty conscience grabs a hold of my mind and plays tricks on it. Instead of focusing my anger on that person who ticked me off, I channel that anger towards myself. Somehow I am able to convince myself that it was my fault all along. As a result, I sit there thinking of the type of apology I need to use when in reality, I have nothing to apologize for. As in all cases, that person who offended me never actually says sorry and I find someway to tell them that I feel bad and that I'm sorry. A couple days later I find myself reassessing the situation and realizing that I should actually be mad. However, it is too late to give that person the silent treatment because I already convinced them that I didn't care that they offended me. Therefore, if I acted mad towards that person they would be super confused as to why I am not speaking to them. Nonetheless, I do this anyways hoping that that person will have the brains to know why I am quiet around them so that they can just say sorry and we all can just move on. They never do. I finally reach the point of realizing that I am overreacting and I move on. That person will never know that I was ever mad at them. It's a crazy trend of mine.